Dependence

Currently Listening To: Marie Antoinette
Current Location: The couch.

For awhile, I have wanted to see what life would be like without facebook, one of the prime ways of communicating nowadays. So earlier this week, I decided to "delete" my facebook and see what happened. As hard as it was, I enjoyed not having facebook. I realized that so much of my time revolved around checking to see what people were up to...on facebook. Instead of actually caring to see how someone's life was and asking them, facebook seemed like a reasonable way for me to see. So these past few days I learned a little bit about myself and others.

1. People depend on facebook too much. Facebook can determine a lot about a person's life. In most cases, facebook is a way for people to express their thoughts, beliefs and who they are. It can be called, letting people know how your day is, that you "like" winter activities or that you think these song lyrics are really awesome. Clarification: I am not saying that any of that is bad, I am not the judge of that. What I found ironic, was how the deletion of facebook worried some people. I got asked if I was okay, if I vanished off the earth, or if I had died (I am hoping that was a joke though...). Yes, everything was okay, it was just an experiment to see what life without facebook would be like. It was ironic how facebook determined how I was or if anything was the matter.

2. I loved facebook a little too much. I realized how dependent I was on checking how lives were on facebook, instead of genuinely asking someone. It was my time-waster. During the "facebook fast", I learned I had a lot of free time. I was surprised at how much of my time was devoted to the internet world. There would be times when I wanted to log on and see what was going on or to even update my status. Instead of checking my facebook, I decided to devote my time to things of greater important. Like, exercising, actually talking with people or more importantly time with God. I learned that I was lacking in my dependence with the One greatest importance in my life. Poor God. Once I found myself spending more time with Him, I found so much more peace, happiness and provisions working in my life. I learned more about my weaknesses and strengths and how much I do rely on God and how much more time He deserves of my life.

I know some people are mocking me. How I only was without facebook for a few days, how I obviously failed. Well yes, I guess I did fail. I logged on to facebook not to become re-addicted but because there are things that I missed out on. Event invitations, hearing about people's lives and etc. I don't plan on being on facebook in the near future. It may seem ridiculous, but it worked for me. I learned more in a few days than I thought I would.